Buenos Dias my friends! Hope ya’ll are having a great weekend, it’s hot, and that’s all I have to say… about that… think Forrest Gump on a park bench, there’s really nothing else to say! So why not sit back, relax in your cool ass home, and let’s talk about what’s been going on!? Marvin Gaye wants to know!
So you ask, Que Pasa, that’s “what’s happening” in Spanish, who needs babble, JK, I do! I did not pay enough attention to my Grandpa Neives or Grandma Jesse, also definitely not my high school Spanish teacher either, side note, if anyone reading this took Spanish with me, you’ll know. My theory, I think she was using us to cook breakfast once a week, she loved having us over to her house, across the street from the high school, to cook breakfast. The whole class! Like okay, tortillas and eggs for breakfast, that’s what I’m talking about, but let’s get back to it, you know how I can get… sidetracked!
What’s been going on is I am moving, to Kansas City… in two weeks! It’s crazy, not because it’s not a good idea, but because I am leaving my bubble, my safety net. And your bubble is hard to leave, but sometimes you have to take that leap and try to do something different, in order to reach your goals, personal or otherwise. I am excited to move, I am ready to start a new career and a new challenge, as well as rebuilding my life! Steve Harvey, you know, the Family Feud guy with the fiercest stash ever, he’s also a really good public speaker (that was probably a job requirement but, who knows right?) and in between takes he talks to the audience. He tells them, you all have a gift, you all have talent, use your gift, use your talent. He tells stories of other people in his life, one cuts grass, but he loves to cut grass, that’s his talent, and he’s really good at it. So that’s what he does and he’s happy, he’s successful, and can support he and his family. If this is true, I kept asking myself, what is my talent? What is my gift? What I automatically think of when someone says talent or gift is, how well you can shoot hoops, or play tennis, or swim butterfly. Everyone’s different, one year I got to go to the Jr. Olympics for swimming, it was so cool and I was super nervous, I left empty handed, which I was not used to, but hey, I’m no Michael Phelps! And let’s be honest, if I wouldn’t have been hungover for most of my summers through high school, I might have done better at the Jr Olympics, but I had other very important things to drink, come on, it was summer. But in all honesty, I could have put more effort in, too late now, movin’ on, like Tom Petty, we all make mistakes!
You know what I think my talent is, my gift?! I think it’s talking to people, and I never considered that as a gift. I just considered it as what most people take “talkers” for, either they low key annoy you a little, or you can deal with it, maybe a little bit of both. Again depends on the subject, the person, the environment, not everybody is going to vibe with one another. The main reason I started this blog was because I wanted to share my story, and let others know that there is hope, because last year, I didn’t have a whole lot of hope, I cried everyday, almost, and still do, a lot, better out than in, that’s what I always say; credit to Shrek on that one!
Since accepting my alcoholism and being open about my booze free lifestyle, it has opened so many conversations I never would have had. I had 3 just in the past couple of days. One, a friend who is now in a pretty awful situation in the hospital, and I may never get to see him again, which is awful, he has a wonderful soul. I spoke to an old friend who just experienced losing someone to alcoholism, he lost that battle, sadly, and passed away at a very young age. I made a new friend who is trying to get out of addiction’s hold, but it’s hard, and I pray he will make it, he has so much talent and life ahead of him. These 3 things made me realize maybe this is God’s plan for me, maybe he gave me this voice to help people, and I had to own up to my own reality and alcoholism, in order to utilize my voice better, and enable me to do what I love doing, which is talking to people, helping people, and being there for others. If you’re not happy, and it’s a tough world to be happy in; we all know misery loves company, so find what makes you happy, your gift, your talent, and do it. We only get to live this life once… so take care of yourself, smile more, love each other, and let’s have a great day!! If you need an ear, I am here, and I get it, so give it today, even if it’s day 1, we all have to start somewhere. You’re not alone.
Hasta my friends, stay tuned and as always, thanks for the support and love!
that’s what ended up happening to me, I’m going to go back to work at the Rehab Recovery center that helped me through my illness after i left the hospital, i did my first public speaking for them 2 weeks ago and standup comedy as well, and from what i was told, they didn’t want me to leave, loved it, and talked about it for days. i find this is my true calling in life, sure it’s about a 250% pay cut, but i hated that life living out of an airport and always on the road, i was always high or drunk in that life, even on the job. i use to think success was money, possessions, and other meaningless bullshit, but now today i define success by doing what you love, in my case inspiring people, never giving up hope and making them laugh just buy opening my smartass mouth up and talking to people rather its one person, or a room full of people. I think you have this same gift too, yours is a different style than mine, but we both have very unique ways of grabbing an audience’s attention and keep them pulled in and listening to what we have to say and staying interested while having a good time and fun. nobody wants to hear the panel of monotone AA stories with no live action and humor at all what so ever, your ability to be quirky, witty, and different is what makes you an amazing person because of your unique personality, i think you are in the realm of finding your Lifes calling and what God put you on this earth to do, i honestly wouldn’t mind tag teaming with you sometime and speaking to a group with their struggles, i think we would kill it!!!
💯 I would love that! That’s amazing. Good for you, you gotta find whatever it is, and just go for it. ✌🏻🌻💕